Darcy’s Living in Alignment Journey:
At the ripe old age of eight I knew that my Soul mission would be to ‘help people find God in their lives’ (hereafter ‘to connect with and partner with Source energy’). This was the response I received to the question I posed to Source energy about wanting to know my vocation in life.
If you haven’t guessed already, I was a practicing Catholic at the time. Receiving this news offered my mind instant relief, for hearing this response felt ‘right’ through and through. Even though the nuns and priests at my school, along with my mother, would have rejoiced and been totally supportive upon hearing this news, I made the decision to keep this revelation to myself.
Being a practicing Catholic, I naturally thought that I would become a priest, and so I went about my business of being a kid, all the while pondering over this revelation. By age fifteen I realized that becoming a priest was not my calling in life after all. Even more surprising and somewhat shocking was being prompted by Source energy to leave the Catholic Church. For devout Catholics back then, even the thought of leaving the Church was considered sacrilegious. But actually leaving the Church! Well, that would be considered an outright abomination. Needless to say, I didn’t consult the parish priest to gain his perspective about the guidance I received.
I was shaken up by this news, feeling both anxious and excited. At the time I recall thinking that my connection with Source energy was my lifeline, and that without this connection I wouldn’t have a life worth living. In my uncertainty I made a deal with Source energy (another act Catholics considered blasphemous): that I would follow my prompting to leave the Church for one year, but that I would return to the Church if I felt at any time that my connection with Source energy was being undermined.
To my surprise, my absence deepened my connection with Source energy. I was both disturbed by the unconventionality of the guidance and intrigued about what the ramifications would be for my life. I was also left without a clue about the particulars of how I would assist people to find a relationship with Source energy in their lives.
So there I was at age sixteen, having made the decision to leave the Catholic Church, knowing that this decision represented a departure from the conditioning of organized religion and more specifically of the Church. I was set free! This was a pivotal turning point in my life. I was feeling energized as well as experiencing uncertainty about how I would go about accomplishing my vocation.
Now that I was set free from the shackles of organized religion, my life took on a renewed sense of meaning and purpose. I spent the next twenty years focused on individuating and differentiating: on becoming my own person.
This was a time of questioning the status quo; of identifying interests; of developing my processing skills; of taking a personal inventory; of addressing my shame, anger, fear, and emotional pain; of developing marketable skills and earning a living; of coming into a sense of my personal power; of reaching out and making new friends; of experimenting with drugs and altered states of consciousness; of exploring my sexuality; of reclaiming my power from people, events, and behaviors; of communing with nature and deepening my connection with the earth; of learning to live in my body; of leaving my family and my home state and traveling and living in various parts of the country; and of immersing myself in many different workshops and trainings.
In short, those twenty years were about finding myself, learning to live authentically, and deprogramming myself from unwanted, limiting societal conditioning. Throughout these twenty years I kept in the forefront the revelation that I was destined to ‘assist people to connect with Source energy in their lives.’ Although I sensed that I was always being guided, I remained in the dark about the particulars of how I would actualize my destiny.
The concern of not knowing how my life of service would unfold was no stranger to me, nor was frustration and impatience with the process. Despite my feelings of doubt and insecurity and the occasional hissy fits, my ability to Trust (i.e., yield to) and Surrender (i.e., merge with) Source energy gradually continued to unfold.
As my processing skills developed and I gained more self-knowledge, I became increasingly aware that all the experiences, events, circumstances, positions, and situations in my life were of significance, and more specifically, that each was preparing me for my calling in life. This recognition offered me solace and kept me motivated to pursue my quest. It wasn’t until my mid-thirties, however, that the information presented in the Living in Alignment body of work began making an indelible impression upon my mind.
Through a series of providential events it became perfectly clear to me that becoming internally resourced (listening to and following my Soul’s guidance) was a viable option for living my life. This new understanding was affirmed by my Soul.
For a more detailed account, see Experience Living in Alignment, Chapter 1: Personal Introduction.
During this time I became aware that I was unknowingly allowing societal conditioning / expectations to override my intuition about important life decisions and realized that this conflict had been going on for as long as I could remember.
Having acknowledged the poignancy of my predicament, I made the decision to pursue becoming internally resourced. Actually, I took this one step further by making a once-and-for-all decision to become internally resourced. And so for the next fifteen years I actively and wholeheartedly resolved to develop the skills necessary to become adept at listening to and following my Soul’s guidance.
Shortly thereafter I had a lucid prophetic dream that affirmed for me that both Soul realization and Soul actualization had become my reality. This dream also revealed that it would be of utmost importance for me to share with others what I’ve learned about the process of becoming internally resourced.
It would take another few years for me to recognize and acknowledge that teaching people to become internally resourced and to live in alignment was the means by which I would accomplish my Soul mission of ‘assisting people to connect with and partner with Source energy in their lives.’